For You I Write

You inspire me...

I once wrote because I was in love
With the idea of love and what
Love songs proclaimed it to be

I wrote because you inspired me
Yes, you inspired me
At our meeting you became a sweet melody
A tune that literally brought me to my knees
One that I thought would never end

I wrote because you became my lazy Saturday morning
Sun shining through your bed room window
Illuminating you soft brown skin
And the serene look on your face
As you peacefully slept, arousing me
Not wanting to wake you,
I settle for a kiss on your forehead
And laid in your arms awake
Savoring the moment afraid that weren't many left
I wrote because I loved you
Not knowing at the time
We were unequally yoked

I write because
Im still in love you,
Despite there no longer being Saturday mornings
Waking up in the comfort in your arms
I write because I've finally come to grips
With the fact the you loved her all along
I write because words that once from fell from your lips
Onto my ears, were never meant for me
But intended for her ears
I write because Im trying to make sense of it all....
I write because I trying to get over you
And overwhelming feelings I've buried within my depths
I write because I fell in love with you
And am still in love with you, though you remain oblivious
I write because Im still holding onto hope of what we could have been
I write because I love you

(I dont think you'll ever comprehend how much I love you)

You Still Bring Me to Tears

As the tears begin to form and flow freely I continue to convince myself that I am alone but never lonely...the words becoming a mantra to get me through the day....

Instead of completing my Saturday morning chores I instead perused on facebook reading the status of friends whats going in their lives...but not before I checked your profile, as I do daily, its become some what of a habit, Im afraid I might be stalking you somewhat, but it is public information...right lol. It has now been approximately 428 since we officially broke up or since you officially told me in so many words that you were no longer in love me with but like a fool I am still pining over you. Not a day goes by without something, from the smell of some random persons cologne to an identical gold/bronze Izuzu Rodeo on the road to the picture that I recently put back up, that I am not reminded of you. Some days I feel fine and others feel like the night of 12.27.2008 when you uttered that you didn't see a future in our relationship...Today feels like that night.