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(Not that he was a bad guy, we were unequally yolked, and I did not want to become Girl Melanie from The Game), always second in place, sometimes next to last lol)

I wrote a poem for you
Entitled it it gets Easier with time
But as we all know its a contradiction
Time has nothing to do with making it easier
So its incomplete

The other day I cried silent tears for you
After realizing what you told me
Validated that my time spent with you
Was nothing but a lie
I cried for allowing you
to have power over my emotions
And my being
For allowing you in
and breaking me down to
the very core
I cried because in spite of loving you
I forgot how to love myself
I cried because I was tired of
My constant state of confusion
And the emotional roller coaster ride I was still on

So the other day I wrote your name
on a piece paper...
And as I wrote the letters to your name
Memories of both joy and pain
Overwhelmed me, but the emotion of
Pain overtook that of the joy
As I bawled up your name
Neatly written on the blank piece paper
Along with "Confusion" written in parentheses
I felt this since of relief take hold, that of the joy
And came to realize if I never see your face again
Ill be fine
If I never speak to you again
I'll be fine
If I never hear from you again
I'll be fine

I've dated men who
Who provided me with more than you
Ever could possibly have to offer me
And sadly their only purpose was to show me
That there is better that awaits
Your better was never enough for me
Cause it was not meant for me but for her
"The girl that twirls" lol

As I made my way toward the small lit fire
The burning love that I once had for
Overtaking my own self love
Quickly dissipated
As I realized that we were never meant to be
And you were never worthy of my love
We were never a good match
Capricorns and Taurus' aren't a good match
So my friend tell me lol
But even more I prayed about it
And God whispered in my ear
That you were never worthy of my love
You never earned it
It was just handed to you freely

As I threw your name in the burning fire
Tears unexpectedly came to my eyes
But behind the tears I felt replenished
And I broke out into a smile

So long to what I once
Perceived as LifeGoods
Its been real lol
REAL