Motherhood…Maybe?

A few months away from my 25th birthday I’ve realized that, I would like to have children after so many years of indecisiveness, not quite sure if I would like to be a career woman in life or mother of maybe two children. My indecisiveness somewhat diminished after about 6 months of being mother to my Lela (my pet Chorkie).


It’s amazing how attached one can become to their pets. I’ve always had pets growing up, but Lela is something else, she is completely dependent on me…not my parents, as my pets growing have been.

There is somewhat of a sense of “I-don’t- have-words-to-describe-it” emotion that overwhelms me when I come home from an 8hrs plus day to her panting and wagging tail upon my entrance to my room. Or the sense of comfort that is felt when she eventually cuddles up next to me when I say night-night at bed-time despite her unwillingness to go to sleep in spite of my sleep deprived eyes; yet full of energy and wanting to play well into the night.

And as pathetic as it might sound I am truly grateful for MyLela (her full name). I almost (mothers correct if I am wrong) feel a hint of motherhood watching my puppy grow from an itty bitty ol’ little thing, less than 1lb to this 3.14lb not too itty bitty quadruped with a big personality and a lot of heart despite her small size. It honestly makes me wonder, why dogs do not go to heaven, as I’ve been told from friends. When I think of our relationship, I think of All American Rejects My Dirty Little Secret, I am afraid that no one will love me as much as my dog…but then again there is a God, so true love does await.

But until true love finds me and I’ve made a committed decision to motherhood, its just me and Lela